The Wolf Behind the Lamb

The following is an allegory based on real experiences. It is a warning to all readers to beware of pulpit predators. Ezekiel tells us to watch and warn, and that is what this is. It is a warning to all readers, and to know that God will hold them accountable for immoral actions.


Section 1: The Way Home

The vessel sits high and steady in calm, open waters.

From the high bridge down to the deepest compartments of the hull, everything moves with smooth purpose. On the upper deck, the morning light catches clean lines and polished wood. The air is clear, the banners are bright, and the sound of fellowship and music carries across the water. It is an environment where brethren dwell together in unity, reflecting the strength of true spiritual peace.

Down beneath the waterline, in the lower holds and crew quarters, the atmosphere is equally serene. The heavy oak frames are solid, clean, and dry. The stewards and deckhands work with cheerful efficiency, tending to supplies, maintaining the lines, and ensuring that every family on board is cared for with fervent charity—a deep, unselfish love that binds the crew together in perfectness. The machinery runs steadily, guided by seasoned hands who know their duty and take joy in it. Everyone operates with a clear purpose, executing their tasks with genuine devotion.

At the center of it all is a captain whose voice carries authority—welcoming, confident, and warm. When he speaks from the quarterdeck, he speaks of green pastures and still waters, offering words that restore the soul and direct every heart toward the Master Mariner. He references the master charts with precision, giving credit to the One who designed the vessel, set its course, and prayed that His people would be made perfect in one. His leadership feels like a steady hand on the wheel during a pleasant sea, guarded by a peace that passeth all understanding.

The officers of the ship mirror the captain in purpose, wisdom, and care. They operate with complete unity of vision and mission, laboring so that the love wherewith the Father has loved them may be felt by every soul on board.

When new passengers step onto the gangway, they receive genuine hospitality. They find a community that loves the Lord, cares for one another’s children, and gives generously of its time and strength. There is a palpable sense of rest here—a feeling that after long seasons of searching or weary travels through storm-tossed seas, they have finally been led beside quiet waters into a safe harbor with a crew worth sailing with.

The ship is not merely functional; it is beautiful. Every timber seems placed by design, every task carried out with single-minded devotion. As the sun climbs overhead, the vessel glides forward under full canvas, surrounded by smooth seas and an unbroken blue sky. To anyone standing on board, one truth is self-evident: God is in this place, His love anchors every soul, and His peace rests upon a ship built to endure.


Think back to the moment you first walked through those sanctuary doors.

You were looking for rest. After seasons of spiritual weariness, wandering, or cold religious formalism, you stepped into a place that felt alive, ordered, and deeply safe—a place where the love of God felt tangible and the peace was like still waters. The preaching moved you, the people welcomed your family warmly, and the leadership earned your trust. For the first time in a long time, your guard dropped. You exhaled, handed over your time, resources, and loyalty, and made a quiet declaration in your heart: I am finally home.


Section 2: The Adjustments

The voyage moves into deeper waters, and with each passing day, the ship’s rhythm settles into a steady, harmonious routine. As new passengers continue to arrive at the gangway, they are greeted with the same warmth and personal attention that marked the beginning of the journey. For those who have been on board longer, the vessel naturally matures in relationship with them. The initial season of being welcomed and cared for gently transitions into an invitation to participate in the labor of the ship—a call to serve one another through love and operate as faithful stewards of God’s varied grace.

To steward the growing fellowship effectively, leadership introduces thoughtful pathways for more profound involvement. Passengers are provided opportunities to align their strengths with the operational needs of the vessel—joining specialized crews responsible for hospitality, watchkeeping, or logistical care. As members are fitted into these service teams, the daily oversight of their spiritual and practical well-being transitions smoothly to appointed department leaders and team officers who are charged to oversee the crew with willingness and eager service.

This realignment is executed with complete naturalness. It is presented not as a shift in posture, but as a spiritual milestone—stepping from the role of a guest into the honor of a co-laborer, where the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love.

The arrangement provides a double benefit. It allows the captain to remain dedicated to the voyage, the welcoming of new people, and seeking direction from the master charts, while ensuring that established members receive continuous, direct care through their local team leaders. Over time, these team leaders become the primary point of fellowship, counsel, and communication for those under their watch.

Nothing about this transition feels distant or restrictive. The deckhands carry out their tasks with gladness of heart, honoring those who labor among them and esteeming them highly in love for their work’s sake. To every observer, this gradual distribution of care is simply the mark of a healthy, expanding ministry where the peace of God rules in every heart and every member finds their proper place in the body.


Recall the season when your relationship with the church moved from being a welcomed guest to a committed participant; it unfolded as a natural progression of your desire to walk worthy of your calling and serve the body. You were invited to explore places where your gifts could meet the needs of the house. You were handed a list of serving opportunities, selected a team, and met the leaders appointed to shepherd that specific ministry.

As you settled into your new role, your primary connection to leadership smoothly migrated. The lead pastor’s personal focus naturally moved toward the fresh faces walking through the doors, while your daily encouragement, prayer, and direction flowed through your team leads. You welcomed this evolution. It felt like biblical maturity—taking your place as a functioning member of the body, bearing one another’s burdens, and helping build up the house of God.


Section 3: The Static Frame and the Sound in the Night

The ship continues on its steady course through calm waters, rolling gently with the long, slow swells of the open sea. Night falls over the vessel, bringing a deep stillness to the corridors below deck. In every cabin and hallway, the natural motion of the ocean is visible in small, predictable ways: hanging coats swing on their pegs, brass lanterns sway gently in their gimbals, and water shifts in glass pitchers. It is the steady, expected rhythm of a vessel laboring in the deep—a reflection of the truth that living things move, flex, and yield under the hand of God.

Walking through the dimly lit corridor toward his quarters, a crew member stops to look at a small framed picture hanging on the bulkhead. It hangs from a simple brass cord—unfastened at the bottom, free to move. Yet as the hull rises and falls with the swells, and as every other hanging object in the passage sways with the sea, the picture remains still. It remains unnaturally still, hanging perfectly straight, completely indifferent to the rolling of the ship beneath it.

It is a minor, peculiar detail. There is no obvious reason for it. A picture suspended from a cord on a rocking ship ought to sway with the tide, yet this one stays perfectly motionless, as if attempting to project a static image of a room that never shifts.

Later that night, lying awake in his berth during the quietest hour before dawn—a watchkeeper pondering the path of his feet—another detail presents itself. The ship is silent except for the low creak of the hull. But from deep beneath the floorboards, down in the dark timber framework of the hold, comes a faint, dry scraping sound.

It is not a loud crack, a sudden breach, or the rush of incoming water. It is a tiny, rhythmic friction, like something small rubbing or gnawing deep within the grain of the wood. It stops for a few minutes, then starts again—just below the floorboards of the berth.

Neither observation prompts an alarm. The crew member knows that charity covers a multitude of sins, and love thinketh no evil. He understands that it is the glory of God to conceal a matter and that every earthly vessel carries small imperfections. The unfastened picture that fails to sway is passed off as a quirk of the ship’s trim. The faint scraping in the dark is dismissed as the natural settling of seasoned oak working in salt water.

The crew member turns over, rationalizes both details as harmless oddities of an otherwise sturdy vessel, and goes back to sleep—yet in the sanctuary of his heart, he obeys the ancient counsel to prove all things, filing the observations away in the ledger of his mind.


Think back to the first time you noticed a detail in your church that didn’t seem to fit.

It wasn’t an open crisis, and nobody was shouting. It was something small and incongruous—like a picture hanging freely on a rocking wall that somehow refuses to sway with the boat. Everything else around you was living, growing, and vulnerable, but that one element was kept artificially still.

And then came that first faint “scraping” in the floorboards at night.

A rumor you overheard in the hallway, an abrupt departure of a long-time volunteer that was explained away in a single vague “God lead them to another church” sentence, or a subtle discrepancy in how decisions were handled behind closed doors. It was just a faint, dry sound beneath the surface during a quiet moment.

You didn’t yell “fire” or call anyone a hypocrite. You did what any loyal, scripture-honoring person does: you chose to think no evil, extended grace, prayed for your pastor, and went back to sleep. But deep down, the Berean ledger had officially opened.


Section 4: The Guarded Railing

The ship presses farther out into the open sea, driven by steady winds and a rising sense of momentum.

From the quarterdeck, the captain’s addresses expand in scope and frequency. He speaks more openly and passionately about the vessel’s ultimate destination—the glorious harbor that lies ahead and the historic nature of the voyage they have undertaken together. The vision is cast with compelling weight, inspiring the crew to labor with renewed vigor and reminding everyone on board of the high calling they share.

Embedded within these uplifting addresses, a new emphasis gently emerges. During his welcome to fresh arrivals, the captain introduces a solemn, protective warning: passengers and crew alike must exercise extreme caution near the ship’s perimeter, never leaning over or drawing too close to the outer railing.

To illustrate the necessity of this boundary, he shares a poignant, deeply personal account—a vague but somber story concerning a family member who once lost a young child to the dark waves in a tragic, sudden accident that no vigilance could have prevented. The story is delivered with genuine emotion and shepherd-like concern. Its purpose is clear: the sea outside the vessel is perilous, and absolute safety is found only by staying well within the center of the deck.

Touched by the story, several crew members approach the ship’s officers, asking how they might offer support or aid to the grieving family. The officers, operating with efficiency, gently redirect the crew’s concern back into practical duty. They explain that the most meaningful way to honor the family and protect the body is simply to remain focused on their assigned work while ensuring that curious children—and any overly inquisitive adults—are kept safely away from the outer edges of the boat.

The instruction carries every appearance of pastoral prudence. It appeals to the body’s natural desire to protect the vulnerable and watch over the flock.

Yet late that night, as the ship rolls smoothly over the deep, the quiet corridor below deck sees a subtle shift. The crew member who first noticed the unfastened picture frame on the bulkhead passes through the hallway once more. This time, he is not alone. A second crew member—a seasoned deckhand known for his steady faith and discernment—stops at the exact same spot.

Together, without speaking a word, both men watch the frame hanging on its brass cord. As the ship rolls beneath their feet and every surrounding lantern sways in rhythm with the sea, the picture remains unnaturally still, standing perfectly vertical against the wall.

Moments later, down in the berth, both men lie awake in the dark. From deep beneath the floorboards, carried through the heavy oak framing of the hold, comes that same faint, faint scratching sound—a dry, rhythmic friction working beneath the surface.

No words are exchanged, and no alarm is sounded. But as their eyes meet in the dim light of the cabin, an undeniable threshold is crossed: the observation is no longer isolated. Under the biblical principle that by the mouth of two or three witnesses every word shall be established, the ledger in the mind now carries its second entry.


Recall the moment when “safety” in your church began to look like a boundary drawn around what you were allowed to look at. It didn’t come as a heavy-handed command. It came wrapped in a heartfelt story from the pulpit—an emotional warning about the dangers of the “outside world,” the tragic downfall of someone who strayed too far, or the spiritual harm that comes from asking questions near the “edge.” The message was clear: staying safe meant staying in the middle of the room, keeping your head down, and not looking too closely over the railing.

When you asked how you could help or support those who seemed hurting or sidelined, you were given a broom, a serving schedule, or a gentle reminder to “stay in your lane” and keep others from getting distracted.

And then came the moment when you realized you were no longer the only one noticing the disconnect. You exchanged a knowing glance with another mature believer across the room—someone who also noticed the static, rehearsed perfection on the platform, and who also heard the faint “scratching” of unaddressed reality beneath the surface. You didn’t start a rebellion, but in that shared moment, you both knew: what you were seeing was real, and the ledger was no longer yours alone.


Section 5: The Simulated Motion

The two crew members return to the narrow passage beneath the main deck, drawn back to the unfastened picture frame.

As they observe it more closely, a jarring reality comes into focus. The picture is not an anomaly because it fails to move; it is the only object in the entire hallway telling the truth.

Looking upward into the shadows of the overhead timber, they trace the brass lanterns, hanging coats, and water pitchers that sway in rhythm with what everyone assumes is the swell of the ocean. Discreetly hidden behind the beams is a system of thin, synchronized cords—a mechanical mechanism that rocks the fixtures back and forth in a manufactured cadence.

The ship is not rolling on the open sea. It is sitting completely motionless, hard aground on an unseen shallow reef. The flapping canvas overhead, the creaking rigging, and the steady sway of the fixtures are a carefully staged illusion of forward momentum.

In an instant, the captain’s solemn warning from the quarterdeck reveals its true purpose. The restriction against approaching the outer railing was never meant to protect passengers from falling into the sea. It was designed to prevent anyone from looking over the side and discovering that the hull is stationary—that there is no wake behind the vessel, no foam breaking across the bow, and no deep water beneath the keel.

Believing in good faith that leadership must be unaware of the deception, the two crew members request a private audience with the ship’s senior officers. They bring their observations forward quietly and respectfully—pointing out the stationary frame, the artificial sway of the lanterns, and the persistent scraping sound rising from the hold at night.

The response from the officers is immediate, cold, and strangely practiced—as if every line has been rehearsed for moments exactly like this.

When the crew members raise the issue of the outer railings and the lack of forward progress, the lead officer narrows his eyes and turns the question back upon them: “Why are you endangering yourself and your brethren by drawing near to the edge of the vessel? A soul ought to trust the captain who has been set over you, for he watches for your safety. Obey those who have the rule over you, and submit yourselves.”

When they point to the motionless frame and the mechanical cords swaying the lanterns, the officer dismisses the physical evidence without a second glance: “Why are you looking for things that are not there? Whatever things are true, honest, and pure—think on these things. Focus on the good and the positive, not the negative. It is a long journey, and we know that people are getting restless. Bringing up such notions will only cause chaos among the passengers, and who is the author of confusion?”

Finally, when they describe the dry, rhythmic scraping beneath the floorboards of the lower berths, the officer’s expression hardens into complete denial: “I do not hear anything. Are you sure you heard it? Is it only at night in the dark? No one else on this ship has seen it or brought this to us. Could it really be true, or could your own mind be deceiving you? You know who the father of lies is.”

The meeting is abruptly concluded. No investigation is launched, no logs are inspected, and no repairs are ordered. The crew members walk out into the corridor, realizing that the officers were not ignorant of the situation at all—and that asking a factual question about the ship’s condition has instantly marked them as a threat to its order.


Recall the exact moment you took your concerns to leadership, confident that they would want to know the truth. You didn’t enter the pastor’s office or the elder board with an axe to grind. You went in with a heavy heart, a love for the church, and a list of objective, verifiable facts—a discrepancy in how funds were being handled, a pattern of manipulation in a ministry department, or a stark contradiction between what was preached from the stage and what was happening behind closed doors. You assumed that once the leadership saw the problem, they would act to fix it.

Instead, you experienced the sudden, chilling wall of spiritualized gaslighting.

When you asked why certain questions were strictly off-limits, you were met with weaponized authority: “Hebrews 13 says to obey those who have rule over you.”

When you pointed out the artificial, rehearsed nature of the public platform compared to the reality on the ground, you were shamed for your perspective: “Why are you looking for things that aren’t there? Focus on the good and positive, not the negative. People are getting restless, and this kind of critical spirit will only cause chaos—and you know God is not the author of confusion.”

And when you brought up the persistent red flags you had observed firsthand, you were met with total denial and a subtle assault on your spiritual sanity: “I don’t hear anything. Are you sure you heard that? Is this only something you’re seeing in the dark? Nobody else is complaining. You need to ask yourself where these thoughts are coming from—you know who the father of lies is.”

You walked out of that room with your head spinning. You went in trying to protect the house from a leak and left, realizing that in the eyes of leadership, pointing out the leak made you the enemy.


Section 6: The Officer of Safety

Under the cover of darkness, the reality of the stalled ship demands a choice.

Knowing the vessel is hard aground and that leadership will only meet questions with spiritualized deflection, the first crew member makes a decisive move. He gathers his family, lowers a lifeboat into the still water, and slips away into the night—choosing the uncertainty of the open sea over a staged illusion on a stranded ship.

The second crew member, resolved to follow the same path, prepares to make his own exit. But as he nears the gangway, a firm hand rests on his shoulder. He turns to find the captain standing in the shadow of the quarterdeck—not cold or angry, but looking at him with an expression of deeply grieved, personal disappointment.

“Why are you leaving us?” the captain asks softly, his voice heavy with pastoral sorrow.

The crew member stands his ground and lists the unvarnished facts: the ship is hard aground on a reef, the forward motion is a mechanical illusion, the lanterns are swaying on pulleys, and the dry scraping beneath the floorboards at night signals something rotting deep in the hold.

The captain sighs, looks at the deck, and then meets his eyes with a look of disarming vulnerability.

“But why are you really leaving us?” the captain asks. “We only hit the reef a short time ago, and we are working tirelessly behind the scenes to get us off. We activated the pulleys and the canvas because a leader must protect his people. Have you ever seen the elderly and young children in a panic rush? In my twenty years as a captain, I once saw a little child badly trampled and an elderly woman drown because terror broke out on deck. I swore to God I would never let panic destroy a flock in my care. Every measure we took was to keep the vulnerable safe while we fix the problem.”

The explanation is masterfully woven. It reframes the deception not as a lie to maintain power, but as a noble, sacrificial act of shepherd-like protection for the weak.

Then the captain leans in closer. “And this scraping you mentioned… can you show me where it is?”

Hoping that the captain is finally taking the structural danger seriously, the crew member leads him down the narrow stairs into the lower passage and points to the exact floorboards where the dry friction grinds in the dark.

The captain stands over the spot, nods slowly, and then turns to the crew member with an approving smile.

“You know, Scripture tells us that the wicked flee when no man pursueth, but the righteous are as bold as a lion,” the captain says smoothly. “Most men would have run away or gossiped in the shadows, but you brought this straight to me. You have proved to me tonight that you are strong, discerning, and built to lead. I am promoting you right now to be my Officer of Safety. I am giving you full authority—take whatever men you need, take whatever tools you require, find out exactly what is making that sound down here, and bring the results directly to me.”

In a single conversation, the trap is sprung. The crew member’s legitimate discernment has been co-opted. By handing him a title, appealing to his spiritual strength, and charging him with a mission to “save the ship,” the captain has turned a potential departure into a deeper layer of captivity.


Recall the moment you tried to walk away, only to be personally intercepted by senior leadership.

You were determined to leave. You saw the lies, you felt the rot, and you watched other discerning families quietly pack up and leave. But before you could make a clean exit, the pastor pulled you into a private room. He didn’t yell or threaten you; he used the ultimate weapon of a high-control leader: vulnerable manipulation.

When you laid out the undeniable facts, he didn’t argue. He admitted just enough of the problem to sound honest, then wrapped the entire cover-up in a noble narrative of protecting the church: “We had to handle it this way to protect the weak. If the whole church knew what was happening, people would stumble, marriages would break, and sheep would drown in panic. I’m just trying to keep the family safe while we work on this quietly.

And then came the masterstroke—the promotion that turned your discernment into your cage:

“The wicked flee when no one pursues, but you’re not like those who ran away. You are committed to the truth. I need men like you beside me. I want to put you in leadership over this department. Help me fix it. Help me protect these people.”

You walked out of that room without your exit. You came in ready to leave a compromised system and left carrying a title, a task list, and the heavy, false responsibility of trying to fix a rot that leadership created—and never intended to cure.


Section 7: The Delusional Command and the Lifting Shadow

As the weeks progress, the officer of safety finds his responsibilities expanding at a relentless pace. Leadership gives him charge over a second service team, then a third. His schedule grows increasingly demanding. His time is consumed by the institution, giving way to an exhausting routine where the only moments he spends with his wife are in the late hours of the night, when both fall into their berth utterly drained.

During the day, their paths rarely align. The duty rosters are arranged with subtle precision: as he walks toward the stern to make his inspection rounds, he passes his wife heading toward the bow to serve the officers. They exchange brief, weary smiles—two faithful crew members systematically isolated from one another.

Sensing an unnatural weight behind the captain’s lingering attention, his wife attempts a countermeasure. Without lodging an accusation, she changes her galley rotation, asking another crew member to deliver the captain’s meals to his private quarters.

The adjustment is short-lived. Within days, the captain announces a new preference: he wishes his meals were delivered directly to the high bridge while he stood behind the wheel. The duty schedule is updated. It is engineered so that only she brings the tray up the narrow steps to the helm. The option to hand the task off is eliminated without debate.

Then, a sudden squall rolls across the open water.

Because the vessel is firmly aground on the reef, it cannot roll with the swells. Instead of riding the waves, the rigid hull takes the full, brutal impact of the sea. The ship shudders violently, the timbers groaning under the immense pressure. Recognizing the immediate peril, the Officer of Safety orders all passengers off the open deck and down into the secure holds.

But as the passengers move toward the hatches, the captain steps out onto the quarterdeck and countermands the order.

He is obsessed with maintaining the aesthetic of a triumphant voyage. An important assembly is scheduled for that very hour, and he refuses to let the weather dictate his itinerary. He commands the families to remain on the open deck, form their ranks, and sing the ship’s anthem to project a spirit of victory over the storm.

The safety officer protests, warning that the deck is slick and the waves are breaching the bulwarks. The captain dismisses him with a cold stare. “Fear is a confession of failure,” the captain announces to the shivering crowd. “We do not bow to circumstances. Stand your ground and show your faith.”

Minutes later, a massive swell slams into the starboard side. A wall of green water sweeps across the deck, knocking a young boy off his feet. The water carries the child rapidly toward the un-railed edge of the scupper, where the dark sea waits.

The safety officer lunges toward the boy, shouting for the parents to help. The parents break rank and take two steps toward their screaming son—but the captain’s voice cuts through the gale.

“Hold your positions!” the captain yells, pointing an authoritarian finger at the parents. “Do not break the unity of this ship! If you step out of line, you bring chaos to the flock! Trust the covering of this vessel and he will be safe!”

What happens next defies all basic human instinct. The parents, completely spellbound by the captain’s authority and terrified of being labeled rebellious, actually stop. They watch their son clinging by his fingertips to the slick wooden edge, yet they step back into their formation, pasting strained smiles onto their faces to prove their “faith” to the captain.

The safety officer dives across the wet planks, grabs the boy’s collar just as his grip fails, and hauls him back onto the solid deck.

Instead of relief, the captain is enraged. He storms down the steps, entirely ignoring the coughing, terrified child. He glares at the safety officer for breaking the visual perfection of the assembly. His eyes are wide, manic, and entirely disconnected from reality.

“Nothing is wrong!” the captain shouts over the wind, gesturing wildly to the terrified crew. “There is no danger here! Do not speak the negative! Put on your smiles and act genuinely as if everything is fine!”

In that moment, watching well-meaning parents willingly endanger their child to appease a narcissist, the entire illusion collapses. The truth is stark and undeniable: the captain is dangerously delusional, and the crew, driven by blind loyalty, has lost all capacity for moral reason.

Late that night, alone in their stateroom, the husband turns to his bride of twenty-five years. He meets her eyes and says, “We are off this boat in the morning.”

He sits at the desk, drafts his resignation, and seals the envelope. Beside him, his wife begins packing. Halfway through folding a garment, she pauses, sits on the edge of the bed, and looks at him with tears welling in her eyes.

“Honey… I have to tell you something,” she whispers.

For the next hour, the words flow. She does not give a list of vague offenses; she details the mechanics of a predator. She describes how the captain used his new schedule to trap her in the narrow chart room. He would dismiss the other officers, close the heavy oak door, and step intentionally into her physical space, forcing her to back against the bulkheads. She details the specific, suggestive conversations he initiated about marital infidelity under the guise of “senior officer mentoring” and the way his hands lingered on her shoulders while he reminded her of his absolute authority over her husband’s position.

As she speaks the truth, something extraordinary happens: the suffocating shadow that had hovered over their marriage for weeks lifts.

In a sudden flash of clarity, every piece of the puzzle locks into place. The husband realizes that his frantic overwork, his endless new assignments, and the opposing duty rosters were never about his leadership potential. They were a deliberate, calculated design to exhaust the officer of the watch, isolate the wife, and breach the sacred covenant of his marriage.


There is a moment when a high-control environment moves past hypocrisy and crosses into dangerous delusion. It happens when leadership proves they are willing to sacrifice the most vulnerable people in the room to preserve their image, their agenda, or their aesthetic of perfection.

The most terrifying part is not the leader’s arrogance; it is watching well-meaning believers willingly endanger their families to obey a reckless command, having been conditioned to view absolute compliance as righteousness. You watch leadership stand in the middle of a raging crisis—a moral failure, a financial collapse, or a structural danger—and scream, “Nothing is wrong! Put on a smile! Do not speak negatively! Do not put the negativity out there!”

That is the night you realize you cannot stay one more day. You write your resignation. And that is often the exact moment the final truth comes to light.

Your spouse finally feels safe enough to speak what they carried in secret. As the hidden things come into the light, you feel a physical weight lift from your home. The unnamable tension that shadowed your marriage for months was not a flaw in your relationship; it was the spiritual alarm of an engineered siege. The endless ministry demands and volunteer schedules were not honors—they were tactical. A predator intentionally exhausted you so you would be too tired to notice that someone was targeting your home.

Scripture declares, “What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder” (Matthew 19:6). When a leader acts with the foolishness of Proverbs 6—using a spiritual position to stalk another man’s covenant—they forfeit every claim to your loyalty. You do not wait for an apology, and you do not argue with delusional leaders. It is time to leave.

Section 8: The Rotten Hull and the Uncompromised Exit

Late into the night, after his wife falls asleep, the husband lies awake staring at the wooden beams above. The decision is made, settled, and final. The resignation letter sits sealed on the desk, ready to be delivered to the quarterdeck before the first watch of dawn. They will be long gone before the ship stirs. 

Yet, as the minutes tick by, that persistent, rhythmic scraping in the floorboards continues to gnaw at him. One final question demands an answer before he turns his back on the vessel forever.

Rising silently, he dresses and makes his way down into the darkest, lowest level of the ship—down to the very bottom of the hold. 

As he steps into the narrow, unlit bilge passage, he encounters a crew member standing in the shadows, holding a box of nails and a claw hammer. Their eyes meet in the dim lantern light. No words are needed; the crew member instantly recognizes why the Officer of Safety is there. 

*”No… no, don’t go down there,”* the crew member whispers, his voice trembling with anxious pleading. *”If you go down there and expose what’s underneath… think of the crew! Think of the passengers! Everyone will be crushed by the news!”*

The safety officer ignores the plea and pushes past him into the deepest belly of the ship. 

The air down here is heavy with a sharp, artificial contrast: the sweet scent of fresh pine hanging over the damp stench of decay. At his feet lies a newly laid section of bright plywood, freshly nailed over the floorboards to cover the source of the noise. 

Reaching out, the officer takes the hammer from the crew member’s hesitant hands. He wedges the claw under the edge of the plywood, bracing his legs and pulling back with all his strength to tear up the board. But instead of resistance, he nearly loses his balance. The plywood snaps up with effortless ease, and the iron nails pull free as if stuck into wet sand.

He stares down into the exposed framing, and the full horror of the vessel’s condition reveals itself. There is no solid timber left beneath the floorboards. The entire inner hull is a spongy, black mass of crumbling rot and termite-eaten cellulose. The scraping sound was not an isolated flaw; it was the sound of the ship’s structural integrity disintegrating from the inside out. The fresh plywood was nothing more than a cosmetic mask laid over a sinking ruin.

The crew member rushes to the edge of the opening, his face pale with terror, shouting not at the rot, but at the man who uncovered it: *”If you tell anyone about this, think of everyone you will hurt with your words! Words have power! What will your words do!!”* 

The officer turns and begins climbing the ladder out of the hold. The crew member’s voice grows louder and more hysterical, echoing up the hatchway: “The people! Think of the people!!”

Reaching the upper corridor, the husband moves with urgent, unshakeable focus. He enters his stateroom, grabs their packed bags, and takes his wife by the hand. *”Follow me,”* he says softly. They move swiftly across the main deck to the starboard side, swing a lifeboat out over the davits, and jump into the small craft. Pushing off from the hull, they take to the oars and begin rowing away from the stationary ship.

Behind them, standing at the lower railing, the crew member’s voice cuts across the dark water, desperate and manipulative: *”The people!! Don’t leave! Don’t abandon them! Why are you doing this when they need you now more than ever!!”*

The husband pauses at the oars, looks back at the illusion of the grand vessel, and shouts his final answer across the expanse:

“Your captain drowned the people and the ship the moment he sent you down to patch the hull!”

At that exact instant, a brilliant bolt of lightning impales the night sky, illuminating the black horizon where a massive, unscripted storm brews in the distance—far greater than any artificial illusion on deck. Unshackled from the false covering of a doomed ship, they row out into the open water, stepping away from the rot and into the hands of the Creator of the Seas.


Notice the ultimate weapon a high-control system uses when its structural rot is finally exposed: “weaponized guilt.”

When you pull back the polished “plywood” of platform presentations, special events, and smooth public statements, you discover the truth: the foundation beneath the church is spongy, rotted, and collapsing. The spiritual abuse, financial opacity, and boundary violations aren’t minor glitches; they are a systemic rot that has hollowed out the house.

And what does leadership do when you point out the rotten hull? They don’t fix the foundation; they only tell you that they are taking care of it. Then, they send someone down with a box of fresh nails, lay down another layer of cosmetic “plywood”—a new sermon series, a brand-building campaign, or a public plea for unity—and tell you to keep quiet.

When you stress that you can no longer participate in the lie, the system turns on you with emotional blackmail:

“Think of the people you’ll hurt if you leave! Think of the young believers you will crush if you speak out! Don’t abandon the flock when they need you most!”

It is a masterclass in psychological inversion. They make *you* feel like the destroyer for pointing out the rot while praising the carpenter who is nailing wallpaper over a collapsing building.

That is the moment you must speak the truth back into the darkness: You are not destroying the church by leaving, exposing the truth, or refusing to lie. The leadership destroyed the house the moment they prioritized their image and selfish desires over biblical integrity, choosing to patch the hull instead of repenting of the rot. They hurt their people the moment that they began to prey on their flock.

You do not owe your life, your marriage, or your conscience to a sinking vessel. You don’t stay out of false loyalty to “the people” when remaining requires you to participate in their deception. 

You grab your family, step off the boat, and row toward solid ground. The storm outside may be intimidating, but it is real—and in the open air, unmediated by human predators or delusional captains, you find the true safety of the God who actually holds the sea in the palm of His hand.

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Behold the Lamb

I have been away for a few months, and not out of laziness. Following the publication of my first book, Nothing, The Silent Destroyer, I am now wrapping up my second book, Rest: The Brutal Occupation. I have also begun writing on a different subject: predators behind the pulpit. This activity is all taking place while I am deep into Bible college classes to obtain a degree in divinity and theology.

Recently, I was asked to speak at a church. Seeking the Lord’s direction, I initially started writing on a different subject—which I will eventually share—but I was redirected. While reading the seventeenth chapter of John, the Lord simply told me, “This passage is the message.”

The title of this message is “Behold the Lamb.”

SERMON TITLE: Behold the Lamb

Core Texts: John 1:29, John 17

In John 1:29, John the Baptist sees Jesus and declares, “Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world.” For thousands of years, the Jewish people understood the devastating weight of what it meant to behold a lamb.

The Old Testament Lamb:

According to God’s law in Exodus 12, a family had to take a one-year-old male lamb without blemish on the tenth day of the month of Nisan to cover their home and make atonement for their sin. However, they could not kill it immediately; instead, they were required to bring the lamb into their home for a period of four days. During those four days, the lamb came under intense scrutiny and inspection to ensure it was without spot or blemish.

The Sacrifice:

On the fourteenth day of Nisan, four days later, the High Priest had to examine the lamb and then declare it without fault or blemish. The father would then walk the innocent Passover lamb to the altar and press his hand heavily upon its head, visually transferring his guilt to the animal. Then, the very master who had fed it, housed it, and comforted it would take a blade and end its life.

The Lamb of God:

Jesus tabernacled—He moved into the house—with the very human beings who were going to betray Him, on the tenth day of Nisan. Many millions of people observe this day as Palm Sunday. He then fulfilled the four days of examination by stepping into the Temple, where He was questioned relentlessly. Ultimately, on the fourth day after His arrest, the Roman governor declared, “I find in him no fault at all.”

The Choice:

This is the moment where the narrative could have changed, but never did. When the mob came, Jesus looked at His disciples and said, “Thinkest thou that I cannot now pray to my Father, and he shall presently give me more than twelve legions of angels?” (Matthew 26:53). He could have snapped His fingers and wiped the world clean. Yet, as Isaiah 53:7 prophesied, He was brought as a lamb to the slaughter and opened not His mouth. He hung on the cross, and at exactly 3:00 PM—the ninth hour of the Jewish day, the exact moment the blades were rising to slaughter the Passover lambs in the Temple—Jesus paid the price once and for all.

Writing the Covenant

Why would the Son of God willingly become the helpless sacrifice?

Because hours before the cross, Jesus looked up to heaven in John Chapter 17 and wrote a new covenant in His own words, signing it with His blood. He was telling the Father, “I am your Lamb for these people. When you look at them, you are to look at my blood.”

He did it to write the covenant of the L-A-M-B: Love so great that Atonement was given for Mankind, for those who Believe.

The L-A-M-B Covenant

L – Love So Great

The foundation of the cross is not a mechanical obligation; it is an overwhelming, covering love. The Shepherd looks at a flock that is prone to wandering, yet He loves them entirely.

  • (Proverbs 10:12): “Hatred stirreth up strifes: but love covereth all sins.”
  • (John 17:26): “And I have declared unto them thy name, and will declare it: that the love wherewith thou hast loved me may be in them, and I in them.”

In a world filled with strife and hatred, true love covers all. Jesus is telling the Father that His perfect love is going to cover every sin, every wandering, and every failure of His flock from that moment and forever.

A – Atonement Was Given

Because of that great love, the Shepherd volunteered for the slaughter. Atonement requires a spotless sacrifice to purge our iniquity.

  • (Proverbs 16:6): “By mercy and truth iniquity is purged: and by the fear of the LORD men depart from evil.”
  • (John 17:19): “And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.”

“To atone” means to cover, and “sanctify” means to make holy. In the Old Testament, the priests would sprinkle the blood of the lamb on the top of the Ark, symbolizing that blood covered the law. To “sanctify” Himself in this moment means He is placing Himself on the altar. He tells the Father He provides the mercy and truth that purge our sins and make us holy. His blood covers the Law that would condemn our unrighteousness.

M – Mankind

The Shepherd’s sacrifice is deeply personal. He isn’t dying for the “world” as a vague, abstract system; He is dying for mankind—for the specific, fragile, breathing human beings the Father entrusted to His care.

  • (Proverbs 8:4): “Unto you, O men, I call; and my voice is to the sons of man.”
  • (John 17:2): “As thou hast given him power over all flesh, that he should give eternal life to as many as thou hast given him.”

Jesus stands between heaven and earth and takes ownership of us. He is using His power to give eternal life specifically to the people placed in His hands. The blood of the Old Testament lamb hit the altar for the sins of the owner of the lamb; the blood of Jesus hit the ground itself, paying the price for the entire world.

The covenant is written. The love is so great. The Atonement has been given. And it was done for mankind. But how does a wandering sheep receive it? They must simply hear the Shepherd’s voice and trust Him.

B – Believe

  • (Proverbs 3:5-6): “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”
  • (John 17:20): “Neither pray I for these alone, but for them also which shall believe on me through their word.“

A sheep survives by trusting the shepherd rather than leaning on its limited understanding of the wilderness. Jesus prayed for His disciples in that upper room, but in verse 20, He prayed for you. He looked down the corridors of time, knowing the cross was just hours away, and He prayed for every single person sitting in this room right now who would hear the Word and simply choose to believe.

If you receive nothing else out of this message, know the Perfection of God: If you lay the Old Testament lamb over Jesus like you would with tracing paper, from the entrance into the house, the examination for any spot or blemish, the sacrifice, and everything leading up to His last breath align perfectly. At the exact same moment that the lambs were dying in the Temple, the Lamb of God was giving up the ghost on the cross.

The Old Testament lamb didn’t know why it had to die. But Jesus knew every single one of your sins, every one of your failures, and every one of your heartbreaks—and He laid His head on the altar anyway.

You do not have to clean yourself up to come to God today. The blood of the Lamb has already covered it all. Love so great, an Atonement given for all Mankind, for those who simply Believe.

If you are ready to stop leaning on your own understanding… lean on the altar, and behold the Lamb.

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Truth and Logic, or Emotion and Lies

When I was younger, I was deeply involved in politics. I was so determined that I could make a difference that I would get into knockdown drag-out arguments. I was in my late 20s and early 30s, and I kept at this until a specific event.

My bride asked me to watch the show America’s Got Talent. I never watched any type of show like this, nor will I ever watch a show like this again. It was the same time that a certain official was up for re-election in the White House. As the debates of politics went on and time passed, so did the America’s Got Talent show. I started to get into the show as I watched something that I had never seen before. A contestant had a talent of creating musical instruments out of ordinary objects. Not only did this contestant make the instruments, but they also played them, used them, and made incredible sounds. Now this contestant made it to the finals along with two other contestants. One had an amazing voice, and the other were a couple of guys that trained dogs to do tricks. It was clear to me who should win; after all, this was a show about Americans who had a special talent!

The finals came, and every finalist performed. The contestant I was watching and “knowing” would win did something astounding. They turned the theater … Yes, the whole building into a massive harp—then PLAYED IT! I sat and stared, my mouth open, misty-eyed, as the sound was so beautiful. The votes came in, and the winner went to the dogs. I was shocked for just a moment and then started laughing. I got up and walked off, saying, “And this is why Obama will win this election. ” The dogs will be dead within a couple years, maybe less, but they won “America’s Got Talent” because they “looked cute.”

The logic behind this is the same logic that runs through your average human—there isn’t any. The part of the brain that is used to make a vote based on a canine hurling itself through a metal hoop over a human being that used a talent to turn a building into an architectural musical wonder was used to vote for the POTUS.

I dropped out of politics at that exact moment, and just like I said, Obama won his second term. 

The ideology behind our political system has now become a matter of emotional responses. The candidates no longer need to make a valid logical point; they just have to show up. The media takes over from here, creating emotional despair over one candidate, then based off the reaction to the level of despair they created, they create emotional fear of the other person losing. A candidate that can’t form a coherent sentence is showered with glory just for showing up; at the same time, the same network takes the other candidate to make them a “bully.” Everyone is then ‘convinced’ that one is a ‘bully,’ and they pick the other guy that gets lost on stage, over the ‘big bad bully because the media said he is and it must be true.’

So what does this have to do with true freedom, you might be asking? The Bible says that the truth shall set you free, so is freedom based off truth? The answer is a logical, resounding yes! So, what is going on today? Look at the logic of this: if truth will set you free and the existence of freedom requires the exposure of truth, then logically and mathematically, truth must be suppressed, which creates a state of fear, which creates a state of dependence, which creates a desire to create an illusion, which creates a desire to react emotionally and vote for a dying dog to get an award over a human that created a musical architectural masterpiece.

It appears that these reality shows are actually social experiments by a system that uses them to gauge how the average human being is thinking, logically or emotionally. Yes, it is a system that is fueled by humans that are chained to the system with fear.

The system, however, has created layers of redundancy to ensure that if a human being begins to think logically, they hit a wall of quite literal psychobabble that was created by the masters of the machine.

A human says, “Ok, I want to be free, so I must learn the truth, so what is the truth?” The first knee-jerk reaction is to say, “Truth differs from a personal point of view,” and it is the most logically illogical lie, so beautifully irrational that even I stand back and have to admire the logic behind it.

Here is the raw, unfiltered definition of the word “truth” that obliterates the modern-day definition of truth.

Latin: Veritas

  • Root: Verus (actual, real, genuine).
  • Definition: That which conforms strictly to reality. It represents the objective state of affairs precisely as they exist in the physical or logical realm, independent of human perception or emotional state.

Greek: Aletheia (ἀλήθεια)

  • Root: a- (a privative prefix meaning “without” or “not”) + lethe (concealment, oblivion, or forgetfulness).
  • Definition: “Un-hiddenness,” “un-concealment,” or “disclosure.” It defines truth as the deliberate exposure of reality. It is the active removal of suppression and illusion, making the actual state of things visible and evident.

Hebrew: Emet (אֱמֶת)

  • Root: Aman (to be firm, to support, to be reliable).
  • Definition: Stability, permanence, and absolute certainty. In this linguistic framework, truth is a structural foundation. It is an unalterable fact that remains mathematically and historically consistent and will not collapse under testing or inquiry.

Linguistically and logically, these definitions eliminate the concept of a “personal truth.” By definition, truth is an external, unalterable absolute, not a subjective variable tailored to an individual’s point of view.

If you are reading this, you might have already subconsciously formed the modern-day definition that “truth is a subjective variable based on a personal point of view.”

So the actual word has been redefined from the same exact system!

Compare the mechanics:

  • Modern-day truth: “Truth is a subjective variable based on a personal point of view.”
  • Actual meaning of truth (Latin, Greek, Hebrew): Strict conformity to reality, deliberate exposure of facts, and absolute structural permanence.

Now, what is the opposite of truth? Well, just compare the historical absolute to the ‘modern day’ variable, and one of these is clearly not like the other. By all logic and math combined, this must mean that the one that is the polar opposite of the historical baseline is the lie.

Wait … am I saying that they redefined the word “truth” so that it is a lie? Actually, I didn’t say that at all; I just pointed out the truth. The system did not just change a word; it removed the metric by which reality is measured, forcing the population back into the loop of emotional dependence and fear.

Sticking with logic here, does truth change? Is what you think might be true actually just more socially accepted?

Logic dictates that there must be the existence of an opposite for something to exist. Dark/Light, Day/Night, Wet/Dry, Up/Down, Life/Death, Left/Right, Truth/Lie. Based off of that logic alone, if something is not true, what is it?

In the past 4,000 – 5,000 years, point to one thing that the word of God has changed. The discovery of the Dead Sea Scrolls, dating back over two millennia, mathematically proved that texts such as the Book of Isaiah have remained virtually unchanged when compared to modern Hebrew manuscripts.

  • It represents the objective state of affairs precisely as they exist in the physical or logical realm, independent of human perception or emotional state.
  • It is the active removal of suppression and illusion, making the actual state of things visible and evident.
  • It is an unalterable fact that remains mathematically and historically consistent and will not collapse under testing or inquiry.

You are in a system that has you questioning the definition of the word “truth” and has replaced it with the definition of a lie. So logically, you are in a closed-loop system that is based on a lie, fueled by your emotions, empowered by your emotional reactions, and protected by a lie.

Who is the father of lies?

A slave is not a slave until that slave realizes they are chained. So, I’m pointing at the chains, but do you see them?

If not… You are still in the system, or you are in the Word.

As Isaiah 55:11 dictates, “So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.”

The Word of the Lord is the perfect, pure, flawless spoken word of truth that will never change.

It is the definition of true freedom!

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By Tim Brown

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Understanding the Godhead/Trinity

I write this next blog with a soul full of heartache and pain. The more I study the scriptures, the more I realize the imperfection of humans. This pain will be addressed at the end of this blog, but first I must discuss the subject I was studying that caused it.

The Godhead, or what is known as the Trinity.

The word “Trinity” is a Latin-derived concept that does not exist anywhere in the text of the King James Bible. It is an extrabiblical construct that has built a foundation of idolatry, confusing believers into worshiping three separate gods. Here is the structural truth, spoken with the authority of Proverbs 1:7. I am not going to modernize or sugarcoat the truth. I am going to offend you with the truth, because the truth is what sets you free.

John 8:32—”And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”

The first and foremost rule of the Godhead is this: there is one God and none else.

Isaiah 45:5—”I am the LORD, and there is none else; there is no God beside me: I girded thee, though thou hast not known me.”

God does not share His glory, His strength, His presence, or His power with anyone.

Isaiah 42:8—”I am the LORD: that is my name: and my glory will I not give to another, neither my praise to graven images.”

Do the members of the Godhead “share” these things? NO. To share requires another distinct entity to share with. There is only one God.

Mark 12:32—”And the scribe said unto him, ‘Well, Master, thou hast said the truth: for there is one God; and there is none other but he:'”

To understand the architecture of the Godhead, we must examine the Hebrew mechanics and remove the veil of confusion.

1 Corinthians 14:33—”For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints.”

The terms are Ab (Father), Ben (Son), and Ruach (Holy Spirit). Break these down to their structural roots:

  • Ab: The Source.
  • Ben: The Building or Body (derived from banah, the structural extension or physical manifestation).
  • Ruach: The Breath or Moving Power.

God the Father is the Source.

God the Son is the Building.

God the Holy Spirit is the Breath.

I have witnessed explosive arguments where people claim believers worship a Jesus who is not God. Here is the danger. Jesus is not a god. Jesus is not from God. Jesus IS God manifested in a physical form—the visible Temple of the invisible Creator.

1 Timothy “3:16—”And without controversy great is the mystery of godliness: God was manifest in the flesh, justified in the Spirit, seen of angels, preached unto the Gentiles, believed on in the world, received up into glory.”

If you claim that God created Jesus, that makes Jesus separate from God and part of His creation. Praying to Jesus in that manner is a foundational collapse into blasphemy.

Romans 1:25—”Who changed the truth of God into a lie and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen.”

You would be praying to another god entirely separate from the Source. No man has seen the Ab and lived. The unfiltered glory of the Source is a consuming fire that corrupts flesh.

Exodus 33:20—”And he said, ‘Thou canst not see my face: for there shall no man see me, and live.'”

But the Ben of the Ab was made flesh to dwell among men. The Infinite stepped down into a visible, physical structure.

John 1:14—”And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.”

The Ben Himself verified this architecture:

John 14:9—”Jesus saith unto him… he that hath seen me hath seen the Father; and how sayest thou then, ‘Shew us the Father?'”

Look at the baptism, and let’s address the stained-glass depiction of a literal bird landing on a wet man. This scene is exactly why the “Trinity” concept causes confusion; modern religion teaches this event as three separate gods having a meeting at a river.

Look at the mechanics. He rises from the water; the Ab confirms that this physical structure is the Ben, and the Ruach is breathed upon Him “like a dove.”

Matthew 3:16-17—” And Jesus, when he was baptized, went up straightway out of the water: and, lo, the heavens were opened unto him, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and lighting upon him: And lo, a voice from heaven, saying, “This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.”

Translating this into Hebrew. The word for “dove” is “Yonah” (יוֹנָה). The root of this points back directly to the action in Genesis 1:2, where the Ruach “moved” or hovered over the face of the waters. The phrase “like a dove” describes the manner of the descent—a hovering, targeted release of active power connecting the Source to the Structure. It is not a biological bird. To paint it as an avian creature is to reduce the invisible, moving power of the Godhead to a literal pigeon.

The scene is not three gods meeting at a river. This image is the first public authentication of the blueprint. It is the moment the Source audibly verified the physical structure while deploying the power, fulfilling the exact parameters of the prophecy:

Isaiah 42:1—”Behold my servant, whom I uphold; mine elect, in whom my soul delighteth; I have put my spirit upon him: he shall bring forth judgment to the Gentiles.”

Now, what is the definition of God? Ab, Ben, and Ruach. Deuteronomy 6:4—”Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God is one [Echad] LORD.” The most frequent word for “God” in the Old Testament is Elohim. The word “El” is the singular form of “God,” used to denote the absolute, One Source, One Structure, One Breath. (Echad)

Anything and anyone that teaches anything else is wrong.

“The Father is not the Son, and the Son is not the Father.” (Catechism of the Catholic Church 254 )

“I and my Father are one.” John 10:30

The Catechism of the Catholic Church teaches 1.4 billion people. 0% of all Catholic churches bring a Bible to the pulpit and teach from it. Only 7% Catholics read the Word of God (the Bible) on their own time.

“Search the scriptures; for in them ye think ye have eternal life: and they are they which testify of me.” John 5:39

At the beginning of this, I said that my soul was full of heartache. This is because of the 1.4 billion people that are worshipping a god that blatantly states that it is not God.

So I ask you. Which one do you believe? Which one will give you true freedom, and which one will make you a slave to man-made rituals?

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By Tim Brown

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Are you where God wants you?

I realize that I have been absent, but I assure you that it was not out of laziness. I have authored and published my first book (link at the bottom), and I am working on my next book.

Today, I want to examine the plan God has for our lives by posing a series of foundational questions:

  • “Am I where God wants me to be?”
  • “Am I where I deserve to be?”
  • “How do I know that God wants me where I am?”
  • “How do I do God’s will?”
  • “How do I tune my heart to listen for His direction?”

The Fallacy of Circumstantial Justification

Consider the justification of the individual sitting at the bar, the gambling house, or the strip club: “If God did not want me here, I wouldn’t be here.” This phrase is not the catalyst that initiated the action; it is the anchor welded to the soul to keep that person in the seat.

The Architecture of the Anchor

“For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.” (1 John 2:16).

The rationalization, however, is a defense mechanism triggered by conviction. When the Holy Spirit presses upon the individual in that environment, the carnal mind must invent a firewall to block the conviction so the flesh can remain. To stay in the seat, the individual actively perverts the doctrine of God’s sovereignty. They construct a fatalistic argument that shifts culpability from their own free will to the Creator:

  • The False Logic: God is all-powerful. I am sitting in this bar. If God is all-powerful, He could physically prevent me from being here. He has not. Therefore, my presence here is endorsed by His inaction.
  • The Biblical Reality: This psychological rebellion is the act of a man ruining his life through sin and then blaming God for the outcome.
    • James 1:13-14: “Let no man say when he is tempted, ‘I am tempted of God’: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: but every man is tempted when he is drawn away of his own lust and enticed.”
    • Proverbs 19:3: “The foolishness of man perverteth his way, and his heart fretteth against the LORD.”

The Seared Conscience

Using God’s sovereignty to justify blatant rebellion is a highly destructive state of mind. It requires the individual to look at an environment fundamentally hostile to God and declare it to be His will. This is the precise definition of calling evil good.

When a person repeatedly relies on this justification to stay in the seat, they actively damage their capacity to process the truth, leading to a distorted moral perspective that aligns with the biblical warning against calling evil good.

1 Timothy 4:2: “Speaking lies in hypocrisy; having their conscience seared with a hot iron.”

Isaiah 5:20: “Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!”

If you receive a text message while sitting at a bar asking, “Are you where God wants you to be?” the answer is blatantly obvious. The environment itself is fundamentally opposed to the holiness of God. However, the deception of the flesh is far more subtle when the environment appears righteous.

What happens when that same text message arrives while you are sitting in a church pew, serving at a soup kitchen, handing out tracts in a park, or building a school in a foreign country? The immediate human reaction is to assume that because the action is “good,” the placement must be ordained. This assumption is a critical error. God requires obedience, not unauthorized sacrifice.

Here is the breakdown of the five questions applied to this dichotomy of environment.

1. “Am I where God wants me to be?”

A righteous location does not automatically equal divine placement. You can be entirely out of the will of God while standing behind a pulpit or feeding the poor if God instructed you to be somewhere else. Operating outside of God’s specific command, even to do a “good work,” is rebellion disguised as righteousness. King Saul lost his kingdom because he offered a sacrifice to God instead of waiting for the prophet Samuel as instructed.

  • 1 Samuel 15:22: “And Samuel said, Hath the LORD as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.”

2. “Am I where I deserve to be?”

The human mind easily accepts that the man in the bar deserves judgment. But the mind struggles to accept that the man building an orphanage in a foreign country deserves the exact same judgment. Whether in a strip club or a soup kitchen, human merit results in condemnation. Any position of service or utility in God’s kingdom is unmerited grace. Relying on the “goodness” of your current location to justify your standing before God is prideful and biblically false.

  • Isaiah 64:6: “But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.”

3. “How do I know that God wants me where I am?”

You cannot measure God’s will by the visual optics of the task. A man can hand out tracts in a park simply to feed his ego or to earn the praise of his peers. Knowing God wants you there requires examining the motive and the fruit. Are you there because you surrendered your will to the Holy Spirit, or are you there because it makes you look spiritual to others? If the motivation is rooted in self, you are operating in the flesh, regardless of how holy the environment looks.

  • Proverbs 14:12: “There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death.”

4. “How do I do God’s will?”

Doing God’s will requires executing His specific commands for your life, not executing your own ideas of what is best for Him. Christ explicitly warned that many will stand before Him citing their impressive, righteous works—prophesying, casting out devils, doing wonderful works—and He will cast them into hell because they were operating outside of His will.

  • Matthew 7:22-23: “Many will say to me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.”

5. “How do I tune my heart to listen for His direction?”

To tune your heart, you must silence the noise of your ambitions, including your “spiritual” ambitions. The flesh constantly wants to do something to prove its worth. Tuning your heart requires stopping the frantic pace of self-directed good works, submitting to the authority of scripture, and waiting for the Lord’s actual direction. You cannot hear the commander’s orders if you are already charging into a battle. He did not tell you to fight.

  • Psalm 46:10: “Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.”

The Danger of the Unauthorized Position

The physical location of a person—whether sitting on a barstool or standing behind a pulpit—is secondary to the posture of their obedience. The human mind is inherently deceptive, seeking to justify its rebellion by pointing either to the permissive sovereignty of God in a place of sin or the visual optics of righteousness in a place of service. Both are catastrophic errors.

If a man is in a gambling house, he is actively indulging the flesh and using fatalism as a shield against conviction. If a man is building an orphanage without the express command of God, he is offering an unauthorized sacrifice and using “good works” to mask his pride. True alignment with the will of God is not found in merely avoiding the world’s most obvious traps, nor is it found in frantically doing good deeds to validate a position. It is found in absolute submission to the precise commands of scripture.

To operate outside of these parameters—regardless of how noble the task appears to the world—is to step into the exact same rebellion as the man in the bar.

  • 1 Samuel 15:23: “For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the LORD, he hath also rejected thee from being king.”

This understanding demands a deeper examination of our current situation. If our location and actions must be strictly commanded by God, we must identify where we actually stand within His sovereign narrative. We must determine if we are the instrument of His deliverance, the vessel of His wrath, the unwitting interceptor, or the rebellious prophet.

This is part of the true freedom that God has given each and every one of His children.

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The Free Gift – Jesus

Leviticus 9:2 – 4

2 – And he said unto Aaron, take thee a young calf for a sin offering, and a ram for a burnt offering without blemish and offer them before the Lord. 3 – And unto the children of Israel thou shalt speak, saying, Take ye a kid of the goats for a sin offering; and calf and a lamb, both of the first year, without blemish, for a burnt offering. 4 – Also a bullock and a ram for peace offerings, to sacrifice before the Lord; and a meat offering mingled with oil: for today the Lord will appear unto you.

What is the price of freedom from sin? In the Old Testament God spoke to Moses and gave Him specific instructions on the price of sin. As we just read in Leviticus, the price of sin was the blood of the animals listed, and then the Lord would appear to them. God could not come to them until the sins had been paid for with blood. Who has sinned, and who needs to make this sacrifice of blood?

Romans 3:10

As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one

Can anyone do anything else to gain favor with God without paying the price of blood?

Isaiah 64:6

But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags, and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.

The most important words are “none” and “all”. No one ever born, is being born, or will be born will ever be righteous, and anything anyone ever does no matter how “good” or “amazing”. Do you give to a church? Not good enough. Do you save lives as a doctor, nurse, or EMT? Not good enough. Do you teach other people to stay away from drugs, a drunken lifestyle, or immoral behavior? Not good enough. Do you give everything you are, everything you ever had, all you have, and ever will have away to a good cause? Not good enough. Nothing is good enough.

Ezra 9:15

O Lord God of Israel, You are righteous, for we have been left an escaped remnant, as it is this day; behold, we are before You in our guilt, for no one can stand before You because of this.

Only Lord God of Isreal is righteous, and as we read in Leviticus, the only way to Him is through Blood. The Old Testament shows us the price that must be paid. This price is of blood, and the Lord God demanded that this be done every year. So, what changed between the Old Testament and the New Testament? Nothing changed, yet everything changed. Our sin, our wickedness still has a price that must be paid with the blood of a sacrifice.

Hebrews 9 16 – Hebrews 10

Jesus Christ became that sacrifice. In Leviticus, we read that God demanded a sacrifice that was without blemish. This is to say, that God demanded a perfect blood sacrifice.

1 Peter 2:21 – 25

21 – For even hereunto were ye called: because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example, that ye should follow his steps. 22 –  Who did no sin, neither was guile found in his mouth. 23 –  Who, when he was reviled, reviled not again; when he suffered, he threatened not; but committed himself to him that judgeth righteously. 24 –  Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed. 25 –  For ye were as sheep going astray; but are now returned unto the Shepherd and Bishop of your souls

Jesus Christ, perfect, who did no sin, spoke only the pure truth and never threatened while He was threatened. Jesus Christ is the perfect Lamb of God that takes away the sin of the world, so that we, can become righteous through Him. Why?

John 3:16-17

16 – For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 17 – For God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through Him might be saved.

As in the Old Testament, God will not appear to us, until our sins have been paid for. Must we sacrifice animals? Must we follow rituals, traditions, and rules for the Lord God to come to us or for us to go to Him? No. Jesus Christ paid it all with His death on the cross, He defeated death as He was raised up on the third day, and He now sits at the right hand of the one and only Holy God.

Jesus is the free gift – and through Him, that is TRUE FREEDOM. Freedom from sin, guilt, and shame. Free from paying the price with our own blood and death. Free from “religion”, from rituals, and from tradition.

To know Jesus Christ, The Lamb of God, The King of Kings of Kings, the Lord of Lords, is to be Truly and completely Free.

The ungodly price of “freedom”

Acts 22:28

And the chief captain answered, “With a great sum obtained I this freedom.” And Paul said, “I was free born”.

In Acts chapter 21:27 we have a scene where the Jews saw Paul in the Temple and attacked him creating a very violent scene that drew the attention of the Romans stationed there. As he was being beaten, the Roman chief captain had his soldiers arrest Paul to try to quell what was about to turn into a mad riot and more than likely the murder of Paul. As the Roman soldiers pulled him out of the crowd it appears that the crowd forced them into a corner where the only way out was “up” a flight of stairs. Paul took advantage of that flight of stairs to face down the crowd and with the permission of the Roman chief caption, gave his testimony. His message drew so much ire from the crowd that they openly started to proclaim that Paul must be killed.

Seeing that this was only going to escalate, the Roman chief captain, brought him into a castle to be scourged and beaten. They felt that he was the instigator of this riot and they were going to punish him. As they bound him and prepared to beat him, Paul turns to the centurion in charge and lets him know that they are about to beat a Roman citizen. This was against Roman law.

The fact that the chief captain stated “With a great sum obtained I this freedom” tells us that this Roman paid a large price to reach his rank. While the Bible does not go into detail about what the price actually was, looking into the Roman culture and laws of that time, we can say that it was not a price in gold or money. We can say that this man worked hard and sacrificed quite a bit, all of his life to reach this status and rank. It is possible that this man was not a Roman citizen, and it is possible that he was paying off a form of debt in service of Rome.

When Paul states “I was free born”, it gave him instant status above this Roman captain to a level that the captain was suddenly very afraid, and immediately released him.

Paul’s words “I was free born” are so much more powerful than “With a great sum obtained I this freedom”. Paul is literally saying that there is nothing that can take away his freedom, he was born free. The captain is saying “I paid a large price to get where I am” and his actions could destroy his position.

This is a representation of our Freedom in Christ. We are born free when we are born again.

John 3:3

Jesus answered and said “Verily verily I say unto thee, except a man be born again, he can not see the Kingdom of God”

There is nothing that can be done against us and nothing that we can do to jeopardize our Freedom.

We are truly Free

My free Freedom

Freedom is not free, if you are human and have an IQ above the length of a shoestring, you will know this. So why am I starting off with “My Free Freedom”.

Genesis 1:1-2

In the beginning, God created heaven and the earth, and the earth was without form and void and darkness was upon the face of the deep, and the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

John 1:1-5

In the beginning, was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. The same was in the beginning with God, All things were made by Him, and without Him, was not anything made that was made. In Him was life, and life was the light of men. And the light shineth in the darkness, and the darkness comprehended it not.

Romans 3:9-12

As it is written, there is none righteous, no not one. There is none that understandeth, there is none that seeketh after God. They are all gone out of the way, they are together become unprofitable, there is none that doeth good, no, not one.

What does this mean? The all-powerful God that spoke all existence into existence has made Freedom, free… for me. WHY? Because in the presence of a Holy and all-powerful GOD, there is nothing that I can do that can ever match up to the price of True Freedom.

Thus, my freedom is free from anything I can ever attempt to try to earn. There is nothing, I can do to earn this Freedom. Thus, to me, it is free.. nothing I possess is can match the price.

The Price is the shed blood of Jesus Christ.

The only thing I can ever do to earn this freedom is to understand that it is free – not through anything I do, but through the love of God, and me, simply accepting this fact. My freedom in Christ, while costly, is beyond my reach in anything I do to attempt to earn it. Thus… my Freedom is Free from anything I can ever imagine doing, and is completely reliant on everything Jesus Christ did for my freedom.